Waiting for April
posted: Mar 29, 02:14 PM
My doctor has put me off on sick leave for the month of April. An entire month off to relax, regroup; essentially to begin to feel better, less exhausted.
The preparation for this time away is huge. I guess we never really realize just how busy we are on a day to day basis, until we attempt to jam all of our tasks/responsibilities into a compressed period of time.
I am going to miss my colleagues and students. I felt extremely supported, valued and loved when I returned to work last Monday.
My students repeatedly told me how challenging they had found school without me there. This made me sad to hear, but also reinforced that no matter how much like a “band-aid” I may feel, I do make a difference.
I feel extremely “torn” to be leaving my students for a month and know it will be difficult to share this news with them. I know I need this time to get back to “normal”, but I also feel frustrated that my body needs the rest and cannot do what I need it to do.
In nature, April is a month of renewal and growth. I know I will be renewed and refreshed after this break, but right this minute, I feel sad.