Talking to myself
posted: Nov 19, 08:12 PM
There are few things better than being able to laugh at ourselves. Similarly, there are few things worse than being annoyed with ourselves.
I don’t mind laughing at myself. This is probably a good thing given what life can, and does, throw at us. I also think laughter is one of the best remedies for life’s challenges.
Alternatively, I’m not so good with being annoyed with myself. I know I can be rougher on myself than I would be on another person. If someone else messes up, I am likely to respond with “We’re human. We all make mistakes.” (Of course, there are some errors which are too big in scope for this observation, but I am talking about day to day “mess ups”).
I have always had a difficult time trusting others. I don’t know if this is left over from some childhood experiences or as a result of certain adult events. It probably doesn’t matter too much. I find it hard to trust. Due to this reluctance I really get mad at myself when I give my trust to another and find they “let me down”.
I’m more annoyed under these circumstances with myself, than with the individual who abused my trust. What is that about? Given how long it takes me to trust I must have been pretty comfortable letting my guard down and finally letting them into my “circle of trust”.
You know, this talking to myself piece of writing has been quite therapeutic. I’ll have to talk to myself, through you, more often.
Gemini