Post hospital reflections
posted: Mar 21, 04:44 PM
So, the Princess and I are finally home from the hospital. She came home on Friday. Oh! That’s yesterday! My sense of time is pretty messed up, probably due to lack of sleep and the sameness of the hospital environment.
I even made the unprecedented choice to post pics of a sleep deprived me on Facebook. I don’t know what prompted me to do this, probably misplaced narcissism and lack of sanity due to sleep deprivation.
I have great respect for my daughter and how she faces challenges in her life. I am not going to share specifics but suffice to say I hope she will write about what led to her hospitalization and her subsequent journey. This is not a journey she will take on her own, but she is the one who will do the toughest work.
I don’t believe it matters how much love there may be in one’s life, or how much professional support, at the end of the “day” we do the hard “stuff” on our own. It can be a bit less lonely, however, when we know we have love and support to lean on when the path feels too momentous to travel.
My child returns to hospital on Monday to have her heart assessed and, based on it’s recovery, will be discharged and treated as an outpatient. This will require weekly clinic contact, but will infinitely preferable to living in the “zoo/fishbowl” as she and I refer to hospital living.
We’re both glad to be back in familiar surroundings, with our privacy and access to fresh air. I am sure I smell Spring!
Gemini