A Zen decision
posted: Sep 13, 06:01 PM
I’ve decided that much as I love the summer, autumn has it’s merits. My sunflowers, well, one of my sunflowers is blooming; my Phlox and Dame’s Rocket are lovely and smell amazing! Sitting in the garden is relaxing, warm but not humid. There is a great deal to enjoy.
I had an appointment this morning. It was late enough to impact on a course I was planning on attending, but early enough to allow me to arrive eventually. I got all the way over to where I was “on course” and just could not make myself go into the building.
I knew the space I’d spend my day would be dark, stuffy and crowded. The space I had just left held a few too many tough memories and, to be honest, I didn’t feel much like being a conscientious adult.
I was participating in a lot of positive self talk, reminding myself of my professional responsibilities… all the normal “stuff”, and then, I just thought “taking today won’t hurt anyone and may actually be a positive gift to yourself.” This thought clinched the decision. I turned around and went home.
I am feeling very Zen like since I came home. It was a good choice. I’m reading, listening to music and enjoying my garden.